On the 31st of December 2014, one year ago exactly, a Scottish church rang midnight and the bagpipes in the stadium I was standing in began playing the goodbye song. Fireworks were illuminating the sky and my cold smoky breath was blurring the stars behind my partner’s head as I looked up at him. As much as Scotland can be cold on a 31st of December, my heart was burning with love and hope for the new year to come. 

I repeated again and again that I had the feeling that 2015 will be incredible. And 2015 has been incredible in a way. Incredibly sad, incredibly happy, incredibly extreme.

At that moment, a strong and amazing certitude invaded me and I knew the future would be bright and shiny. But I am not a medium. I was then, far from knowing that incredible doesn’t always mean good. 
The Sky gives its most beautiful colours after a storm and sometimes, great things are achieved after a loss. In 2015, I reached the bottom and flew high. It was intense and as much as I felt happy in the end because of the decisions I made and the help of people surrounding me, I wanted to stop this cycle of feelings.
When the fireworks illuminated the sky this time, at midnight, my feet were in the ocean and I was alone. I took a moment to try to find a conclusion to the year I had. What I desired was NOT a new beggining but the continuity of what I started to create since I left London with my backpack. 
I made a promise to myself: to stay positive. I’ve learned that you can change your way and turn some bad situations into something exceptional sometimes if you can look things from the bright side. If I didn’t have my heart broken, would I have decided to push my limits so far? Would I be the person that I am today?

Now, instead of wishing good things for my future, I am enjoying the present. Happen what will happen, this New Year’s Eve is about the “right now”.

I have broken the spell of 2015, on this beach. 

“I’ve learn about faith and strength, and how, when it comes down to it, you must believe in yourself, because there is no one else. Learn to trust you own instincts and you’ll soon realise that nothing is so bad you can’t rise above it.” – Quote from a bad book that I’m reading…